“God” And Other Paths To Enlightenment

Was talking with religious friend yesterday about her being an artist. We were comparing notes about the similarities between the flow states she finds herself in when she’s painting to the flow state I find myself in when I’m mountain biking. While we’re doing completely different things when we find ourselves in the moment, the experience of being completely present is exactly the same for all people – time disappears because there is no past or future to give it a start or finish point, the mind is silent, your emotions are at baseline and you are one with the universe. It’s the same thing you get once you get good at meditating.

Human beings are effectively the same. Brilliant pattern storing and matching machines that go about their environment manipulating things trying to figure the best way to get rewards and learn from the things that created suffering. This is how the world actually is but our powerful brains produce an interactive and reflective consciousness that manufactures layers of meaning for what amount to a bunch of nerve impulses.

So we’re going to wonder what happens when we die, where the universe came from and is there a God? People are going to ask these questions because people are curious. If we’re allowed to ask them. It is a mortal sin in Christianity to question the existence of God, which is a shame because it is the very topic that human beings will find very interesting. I understand why some Christians don’t include certain aspects of the religion into their faith, but religion doesn’t work that way. If that is your God, ALL of the rules apply to you. Cherry picking the pleasing aspects of it is a mortal sin and mortal sin is a show stopper.

I’m an atheist so I’m free to consider God and religion and to really figure-out what they are good for. Well, they’re tools to control the way the brain functions. This isn’t evil, or good, it just is. Thoughts are implanted in the brain and they shape the spontaneous thoughts. If someone is always watching you for example, you’re more likely to behave; the psychological studies show this to be true. But the more interesting thing about religion and is the impact that the rituals have on brain functioning and what this reveals about humanity and our common thread.

Spirituality as a topic SHOULD come-up because people feel something when they mediate or pray, getting together with people to rejoice in a shared interest will create feelings of bonding, community and closeness. We are hunters and gatherers and we stabilize when we focus intensely on something, our brain waves adjust and we become different types of thinkers. Mystic experiences can be facilitated and the human brain is prone to them if the right conditions are met. What these natural experiences get attributed to is another story but they are simply just a different way of thinking that is a consequence of a different way of acting.

Given our genetic similarity to all other human beings there are going to be a finite number of paths through life – we have behavioral tendencies that manifest themselves as ways of being. You have one way of being and there are not that many of them. The specific things people do will be different, but the layer of choice that we think is there isn’t. What exists are a bunch of actions to take, most of which have been determined for you already – there are lots of places to work, but you don’t work at all of them; you work at very few of them. You have a lot of stores to shop at, but you don’t really have a lot of things to buy – you buy certain things, over and over and over again. An infinite world of choice disappears because you choose to live somewhere and do something. Doubt this? Go land helicopter or play professional net ball. You are NOT free to do everything and anything. In fact, there are not a lot of things that we are able to do when compared to the number of things that are possible. But the fact that so many people have almost exactly the same experiences in life does not mean anything other than the tendency for human beings to do and experience the same things because they are so similar.

We’re pack animal and as such we don’t do well with the random acts of others. These relatively few ways of being, the invisible grooves that people follow, are there because we need order. Our behavior shouldn’t deviate too much from the norm and outliers are quickly brought back into the pack if their actions are maladaptive and they find themselves leading the pack if their actions are progressive. As pack animals, there is no place for an invisible leader. We’re on the tail of the sheep in front of us, following the groove we’re in. These social conventions exist with all pack animals though, so humanity’s spontaneous creation of behavioral streams and ways of being are not a consequence of God or religion but a consequence to needing others to survive.

Being an atheist I know more about religions than most religious people. Most atheists do, we have to. Most of us have gotten an education, asked the questions of the people who claim to know, asked the questions of the people who claim to know nothing, watched the actions of religious people, watched the action of the non-religious people and watched the actions of the born again people. We’ve seen a lot of the world through clean eyes, pure and free from mind control and without the fear of considering things to be different. We’ve had to. To consciously commit a mortal sin and make the decision to go to hell for eternity is an admirable one. It takes a lot more character to reject an immoral God than it does to continue to allow their atrocities to be committed.

If you want to understand God, you need to understand people, and know the god of the dogs, cats and animals. Liberty from ignorance comes not from understanding religion and theology and not even from understanding WHY there is religion and theology but from realizing how and why it works so effectively on humans and how to fulfill these needs through perceivable, empirical and scientifically demonstrated ways. Most of us feel empty as is the human condition; a feeling needed to push us towards something. Some will cover this hole with God because it does a good job answering the why questions, some will cover it with a baby, a marriage or a relationship just so they do not feel alone. The atheists realize that this feeling is there to push us forward to do things that increase the chances we create children and send our genes into the future. Then we make the decision on whether or not this is what WE want or need, never asking what is written in the scriptures.

A Christian friend once told me that to be an atheist was to put my faith in something, and I suppose they were right. I have faith in my ability to sense and perceive the things that happen in the world, I have faith in my brains ability to assimilate and understand all of the information that it is presented with and I have faith the enough human beings will remain curious about the reasons for things that they will continue to search for tangible and reliable explanations.

Earth Rise – Dec 24, 1968

December 24th, 1968. Three Americans disappear behind the moon for the first time in history. They fire the service modules big engine to slow their speed, slipping into the orbit of the first non-earth celestial body. They wait, the sun soon lights up the inside of the command module, a sun rise. Nice, but nothing new. Suddenly, before radio communication with earth is restored the earth begins to rise from the horizon of the moon. This is the first earth rise witnessed by humanity.

It sure is pretty!

Antiquated Coping Strategies – Smoking

NOTE – I don’t know the person in the image above but her story is available here. I use this image because it is reminiscent of my dad’s last few days and because those last few days were like NOTHING I have ever experienced. Take a look at the Poo bear on the table and the pictures of her loved ones. Read her story and the final words from her husband. I could be her in a few years and the post below outlines what I need to do to stop that from being my future.

I started smoking again. I had the choice to not start but I convinced myself that I DIDN’T have a choice and set-out believing that it was a fine coping strategy.

It was embarrassing to lie to my father about it. “I’m going out to work on something in the workshop” was what I’d say, and I’d do something, but it was really a trip out there to smoke. The lie made him feel better, like I was finally taking ownership of my life and working hard to build the panel business and it allowed me to avoid disappointing him in his last weeks here. He was proud that I had turned my life around after Natalie’s death – stopped smoking, started eating correctly, got back to exercising, became a personal trainer, started teaching cycling classes and effectively stopped doing most of the things that were destructive. I was glad that my dad was happy and once I slipped, and it was evident that he was getting sick, the smoking habit took hold because I didn’t want to stop out of fear of what it might be like. I also didn’t want to rock the boat given his terminal diagnosis.

Now I have quit. I left everything as it was until I was able to deal only with the death of my dad and the impact it has had on my self-awareness. This was a request of my family to just try and keep things normal until you know what you are feeling and are ready to make the changes. Strangely, the thing that actually clued me into the fact that it would be fantastic idea to stop was a realization about my girl friend at the time. She’s an amazing women and I think we both knew that the relationship would be a 2 part thing if it was to last at all. There was not going to be continuity in it, a separation / break-up was going to be absolutely necessary because of WHO I am and where I am in my life. BUT, my time with her was good and I realized that I actually wanted to live for as long as I can. There was something about the relationship with her that helped me realize that you can feel connected to someone and this connection can help you see things about your behavior that aren’t working. I needed to stop for myself, not for her, my dad, for anyone. I tabled the stopping until after my dad died.

I don’t want to die. I want to live forever, floating through the universe with a smile and love in my heart. But I will not live forever, and if I don’t fix my bad habits, I won’t live for much longer.

Below is a list of the positive changes that occur when someone stops smoking. I like this list because there are benchmark to achieve and it tells a story about recovery. The body will heal itself from a lot of damage if you do the things to promote recover, but only if you stop the damage as well.

Last smoke plus …
  • 20 minutes
  • Your blood pressure, pulse rate, and the temperature of your hands and feet will all return to normal.
  • 8 hours
  • Remaining nicotine in your bloodstream will have fallen to 6.25% of normal peak daily levels, a 93.25% reduction.
  • 12 hours
  • Your blood oxygen level will have increased to normal and carbon monoxide levels will have dropped to normal.
  • 24 hours
  • Anxieties peak in intensity and within two weeks should return to near pre-cessation levels.
  • 48 hours
  • Damaged nerve endings have started to regrow and your sense of smell and taste are beginning to return to normal. Cessation anger and irritability peaks.
  • 72 hours
  • Your entire body will test 100% nicotine-free and over 90% of all nicotine metabolites (the chemicals it breaks down into) will now have passed from your body via your urine.  Symptoms of chemical withdrawal have peaked in intensity, including restlessness. The number of cue induced crave episodes experienced during any quitting day will peak for the “average” ex-user. Lung bronchial tubes leading to air sacs (alveoli) are beginning to relax in recovering smokers. Breathing is becoming easier and the lungs functional abilities are starting to increase.
  • 5 – 8 days
  • The “average” ex-smoker will encounter an “average” of three cue induced crave episodes per day. Although we may not be “average” and although serious cessation time distortion can make minutes feel like hours, it is unlikely that any single episode will last longer than 3 minutes. Keep a clock handy and time them.
  • 10 days
  • 10 days – The “average ex-user is down to encountering less than two crave episodes per day, each less than 3 minutes.
  • 10 days to 2 weeks
  • Recovery has likely progressed to the point where your addiction is no longer doing the talking. Blood circulation in our gums and teeth are now similar to that of a non-user.
  • 2 to 4 weeks
  • Cessation related anger, anxiety, difficulty concentrating, impatience, insomnia, restlessness and depression have ended. If still experiencing any of these symptoms get seen and evaluated by your physician.
  • 21 days
  • Brain acetylcholine receptor counts up-regulated in response to nicotine’s presence have now down-regulated and receptor binding has returned to levels seen in the brains of non-smokers.
  • 2 weeks to 3 months
  • Your heart attack risk has started to drop. Your lung function is beginning to improve.
  • 3 weeks to 3 months
  • Your circulation has substantially improved. Walking has become easier. Your chronic cough, if any, has likely disappeared.
  • 1 to 9 months
  • Any smoking related sinus congestion, fatigue or shortness of breath have decreased. Cilia have regrown in your lungs thereby increasing their ability to handle mucus, keep your lungs clean, and reduce infections. Your body’s overall energy has increased.
  • 1 year
  • Your excess risk of coronary heart disease, heart attack and stroke has dropped to less than half that of a smoker.
  • 5 to 15 years
  • Your risk of stroke has declined to that of a non-smoker.
  • 10 years
  • Your risk of being diagnosed with lung cancer is between 30% and 50% of that for a continuing smoker (2005 study). Risk of death from lung cancer has declined by almost half if you were an average smoker (one pack per day).  Your risk of pancreatic cancer has declined to that of a never-smoker (2011 study), while risk of cancer of the mouth, throat and esophagus has also declined.
  • 13 years
  • Your risk of smoking induced tooth loss has declined to that of a never-smoker (2006 study).
  • 15 years
  • Your risk of coronary heart disease is now that of a person who has never smoked.
  • 20 years
  • Female excess risk of death from all smoking related causes, including lung disease and cancer, has now reduced to that of a never-smoker (2008 study). Risk of pancreatic cancer reduced to that of a never-smoker (2011 study).

    Establishing My Baseline

    I’ve been making a lot of decisions over the last 2 year that I wouldn’t have made any time before. I needed to, my boat was floating in still water and there wasn’t a wind. Life wasn’t going anywhere I wanted it to take me because I was sitting on my hands waiting for someone to shepherd me towards the experiences I would judge and blame them for exposing me to. Yeah, I knew it wasn’t working so I had the change things up.

    Looking back on the last 24 months it is with a mixed sense of satisfaction and complete disappointment. I’m satisfied because I understand who I am, what I need to be happy, what I do that doesn’t make me happy and I’m closing in on the reason WHY my life is exactly as it is. I’m completely disappointed because the ride has been a lot rougher since I started to get my life moving again. It’s hard to change things, even when you know you have to, it still sucks to go without the things you have grown accustomed to. You’ve normalize them, and while they my not be ideal, things are as they are and we suffer when they change.

    This is life though. It’s always in flux. One is born, one dies, two fall in love, two end their relationship, There is a patterns of beginnings and endings and when you get it right there is a middle. And maybe if you get it really right there isn’t really an ending.

    But with all the beginnings and endings that I’m going through, it should be getting easier at this point and it doesn’t really seem to be. The reason for this is that I don’t really have much of a stable identify to return to or hold on to. As a consequence I tend to view myself as not being okay and look to others for signs that things are good. I’ve said this before though, a bunch of times. The difference now is that I’m actually saying it to people who only engage me as an Adult – they don’t parent anyone other than themselves. And it feels ridiculous to say out loud to them.

    My baseline is something that I haven’t seen in a long time – a little over a year ago was the last time I actually felt like I wasn’t working against the universe and the people in it. I know exactly why the switch flipped and it was because I made a mistake a number of months before that I ignored when I made it. The outcome was an assumption that led me down a number of unusual roads all of which were unworkable because they weren’t the roads that I travel best.

    Now with my dad gone and having the freedom to just collapse, I’m taking the time to disappear for a while and come back when I’m me again. I am okay, other people are okay. I do see this now. I just need to take some time to establish my baseline so I have a point of reference to know if I’m off course. I’m actually really excited about it. There are challenges in the experience as I have been off for a while now. I think it’s time that I got to know the ME other people see and like.